I shed some tears today.
I was at work and have the freedom to work and play on my computer. Mostly I work, but sometimes I look at my friends Facebook pages, answer emails, write a blog....
So the trail went like this: I was listening to a friend's podcast online, which led me to look at their Facebook pages and pictures....you know how that goes and one thing leads to another....
And then I saw it.... a happy smiling picture of some of my oldest friends smiling and holding their grandbabies in front of the Christmas tree! They have always been picture perfect, but somehow this time I felt so bad... not begrudging them their joy....but realizing that my tears were that this was how I pictured my life... long marriage, happy life, lots of grandchildren wanting to visit granny.
I had a moment, but then became thankful for my happy life. In the words of Rascall Flatts: "Life's like a novel, with the end ripped out."
And that's okay - because I am getting a surprise ending.
Cindi, as you already know, your time is coming. It doesn't happen overnight. You're still young. I have some close friends that recently became grandparents for the first time and they are in their late 70's, I am sent pictures of beautiful twin baby girls every week. Life is good.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Laurel - You are always encouraging. (Even though you are lying about the "still young" part. :) )
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