So... ya know that last thing I wrote about slowing down.... changing directions... choosing joy again? Remember the thing about the blood? Well, something has come into my life that I never expected. It's the "C" word. I have been diagnosed with a very early stage of uterine/endometrial cancer. As I understand it, it is the "good" kind of cancer to have. If found early (like mine) they should be able to yank all of my girlie parts out and take the cancer with it.
Before you go feeling sorry for me - please know this: I am not fearful AT ALL. I truly am at perfect peace. I know God has control. Staying here on earth is my plan for a few more years. I want to take time to love on my family and appreciate each and every one of them. But if God decides, I'll go and won't even be mad. You see.... he has already written the last chapter of all of our lives whether we approve or not. So getting mad about it is a waste of anyone's precious time. We all have an appointment and the way we leave is so much more important than we think.
I was reading back on an entry from 2011 that I called "I Choose Joy". I was reminded that in 1992-93, I had a choice to make regarding how I was going to respond to a VERY difficult life situation. The bottom line was that I had come to a crossroads and I could have chosen either "life or death" and "blessings or curses." I was advised (by God) to "choose life so that you and your children will live." (from the Bible)
Now, I am at that crossroads yet again. As I write this, I see that once again, I need to show my children how to live and (eventually) die. Even though I am pretty confident it's not time quite yet, I want to show them the strength that only God gives. I want everyone around me to look and me and see Jesus. It's true...I really do.
