Well…an update huh? I’m feeling pretty good. Not as energetic as I am used to being, but I am heading that way. (Quick reminder: uterine c***er leading to 3 major surgeries in June and January leaving me with depleted strength and a friend ”Petunia” that I wear on the front of me.) (Not spelling the *c word because of ALL of the ads that I am getting!) (If you need further explanations - you can private message me.)
But first... I am going to go through a series of radiation and low-dose chemo. Why am I doing something I stomped my feet and said I would NEVER do? …I don’t know… it just seems right at this time.
I have been asking God for peace and wisdom to make the right choices and although I can’t say I’ve had an epiphany about any of this, I am not sure there is a right or wrong choice right now. I’m a little disappointed that something wasn’t written in the sky or there was no note in a bottle for direction, but God continues to reinforce His love for me in many ways and at every turn.
Be assured: I am still unafraid.
“Be still and know that I am God.” The Hebrew meaning for “Be still” in that verse means to “Drop it.” What he was saying, was to drop your weapons to drop the things that you’re trying to use to win a battle that only God can win and to take refuge in God and watch Him go to war for you.
Be still: to be weak, to let go, to release.” Essentially, it means surrender. Surrender – in order that you may know…”
Today is the day that I stop trying to fix it in my strength, I will drop it so that He can pick it up and win the battle with His hands. Today is the day that I surrender and trust that God can do what He said He can do and all I have to do is take refuge in Him.
[partly from a reel by Candace Harmony Rivers]
So, here I am….taking refuge.
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