BRAND NEW ENDING

I suppose I should write something mother-ish on Mother's Day, but if you don't mind - I'm not feeling very much like that. So if you want to keep reading, you will have to indulge me.

A friend sent this to me, and I love it:

"No one can go back and make a brand new start, but anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending."

I keep hearing people say to me that I am starting over.

The truth is, I had a great beginning. My beginning was marked with so much joy, the highest of hopes and a mountain of dreams... and I am reluctant to chuck it out. The joy of constructing this big family, raising my five children and loving and being loved by so many is just too much to throw away just to start over.

Instead of a new beginning, I am going to have a

BRAND NEW ENDING.

I'm not sure what it is going to be about, but I never read the last chapter of a book first anyway.  I have had my last chapter written since I was a little girl. Grow up, get married, have babies and live happily ever after. I did all of that and I am going to

Live happily ever after...

Just not in the way I thought it was going to be.

You see, God also has my last chapter written and it isn't what I had written for myself or planned.... but better...much better. I guess I will give the author of my life the credit for writing that last chapter that I will not even TRY to edit!

I ran across a song that goes along with some of the LETTING GO stuff I have been posting. I am pasting the lyrics and highlighting the particularly meaningful ones.

Listen to this song sung by Carrie Underwood:

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But 

when you're standing at a crossroad,
There's a choice you gotta make.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,

I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,

It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, 

Starts with goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,

Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye,

I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Starts with goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

So I say goodbye to my own ending and look forward to reading the end of the book that was written by the author of my life.